Prom Night/Engagement

Prom came and went in a flash, its hard to believe that it was my last dance. I'm glad I got to spend time with friends and that there was very little drama. Lots of pictures were taken, and I have a lot of wonderful memories with my Jeff and my friends.

Jeff also decided we should go public with our engagement, and it was a good night all in all. Post-Prom was alot of fun, Jeff raced a few of his guy friends and wound up beating them all, each time coming out in a unique way, first time he rolled out and thumped down on the mat, second time he skidded outslipping on the mat, and the third time, he wound up rolling and skidding out.

I also figured out alot more about what was said at my visit at the hospital, and the movie the Lion King, I can't change other people, but I can change how I feel about other people. Basically, hakuna matata. So...I stopped caring about all my lost friendships, and treasure the ones I now have. People who don't want to get to know me, or even try to tough it out, I don't need them. If people have a problem with me, I'm now just going to tell them that they can get over it and that I don't care.

Rain Rain

Yeah i know creative. Real creative. but hey, i'm feeling a little less "proffesional" today. i just want to act my age a bit. It is almost time for PROM!!! And i am unbelievably excited. I am thrilled to hang out with my friends. and of course Jeff!! Hazel gets to have a dance with daddy this year, and hopefully she won't scream when we leave she's gotten very clingy to Jeff because of her teeth.

Hospital-Psych. Ward

Yes. I was in the psych. ward. No. It was not terrible. It helped me alot. Despite all the odd run ins, it was a very helpful stay and I feel better. Alot better.

My roommate helped me laugh at night. And we're going to keep in touch. I just want to say a few words about depression.

Depression is an ILLNESS, and its up to you to take hold of it. You have to be willing to accept it, and be able to seek help when its time for others to help you. Sometimes you can do it alone, but sometimes you can't. There is no shame in asking for help. If you think you need help, don't be afraid to ask. There are people out there who truly want to help.